today i cried for you
salty tears down my face
snotty nosed
ballin for you
pulled my hair
screamed for you
prayed to your god today
i felt your pain
and released it today
i cried those un-named
un-talked about
un-forgiven pains
i cried for rapes that took place
i cried for fathers who were misplaced
for the cheating men/womyn
the drug habits
i cried for your self doubt
i cried for your self doubt
today i cried for you
cried for your beatings and those hurtful words
every bad feeling ever had
every negative word you had to hear
everything that has brought you fear
every shameful thing
i cried for you today
every stab in your back
for the lack of encouragement you had
for the fat girl jokes
the over-sized meals
for the starvation to be thin
i cried for parents that you've lost
and the children you've lost
every death
every illness
every sadness
i cried your pains today
from the pit of my soul
i cried your pains today
to give you more room
you amaze me
you are so wonderful
so magical
so smart
you are perfection
a unique gift
extending my arms like bridges to reach you
your greatness is you
i love you
MY UNION OF THE SOULS ADDRESS
i am living my life passionately
spending more time serving my heart
re-aquainting with my mind
feeding my soul
wholesome purposeful real food
new eyes
positively PERCEIVING LIFE
for our planet
for our children
for all beings
sistahs we must vibrate higher
live out our hearts deepest desire
cuz that is our souls pit of fire
create new wires
that transmit an electrical shift of waves
that open enclaved caves
that have restricted us
find each purpose and heartedly give back
to any who lack an understanding of the power they have
generations are in extreme need
angry frustrated lost
and we are seeing the results
and we talk about others who are at fault but
we must ask ourselves
what am i doing?
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
how are you healing?
we must take some time now
we must take some time now
we must take some time now
and focus on how else i can help
focus right now on how you can help right now
help yourself
help another
sistahs we must realize our food
is supposed to be our body's natural fuel
not some genetically modified version and
animals are alive and deserve to be treated as such
they should be raised kindly and fed properly
slaughtered proudly handled respectfully
so they can provide us
nutritionally beneficially
we must vibrate higher
we must take back our bodies
and be more aware of what we put inside of them
rid them of the created diseases
we must take back our minds
rid them of negative entertainment simply put
it weakens your mind
and makes you a less powerful energy
DO YOU FEEL ME?
WE MUST DOMINATE my sistahs
we must HYDRATE OUR THIRSTY SOULS my sistahs
we must vibrate higher my sistahs
shift your energy like you shift your thoughts but in uplifting spirals
because harboring negative emotions weakens your system
which is a part of a powerful source
but its just a small piece of a much larger universal life force
collectively we are united
we must be stronger ready
be true to yourself my sistahs
my people
we must vibrate higher
get lost in the real stars
get lost in the sun and moon that rise daily no matter what
get lost in exploration of the magnificant manifestations your mind can create
be love
healing
light
natural
be the beginning
powerful
unconditional
infinite
extensions
of higher
vibrating beings
my people we must vibrate higher
we must
THERE WILL NEVER COME A DAY YOU WILL EVER HEAR ME SAY THAT I WANT OR NEED TO BE WITHOUT YOU.....
BUT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN TODAY BECOMES THAT DAY AND MY EMOTIONS ARE FLOWING THROUGH MY VEINS MENTALLY AND PHYSICALY MAKING ME INSANE
HEART AND MIND ARE AT WAR ONE KNOWS IT NEEDS TO SOAR BUT THE OTHER ONE JUST WON'T LET GO
I WANTED TO GIVE MY ALL AND BABY I FELT LIKE I GAVE MY ALL STOOD NEXT TO YOU PROUD AND TALL WAS READY TO CATCH YOU IF YOU WERE TO FALL
I WANTED YOU TO HOLD ME BUT YOU TRIED TO MOLD ME AND FOLD AND KEEP ME IN YOUR POCKET HAD YOU JUST ASKED I WOULD'VE GIVEN YOU A PIECE OF ME TO WEAR AROUND YOU LIKE A LOCKET
I LOOKED ITO MY EYES AND SAW NO SPARKLE OR GLOW I
I REALIZED THAT YOU AND I WELL
WE COULD'NT GROW AND NOW IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GO
I STILL WANT YOU IN MY LIFE
BUT
ITS TIME FOR ME TO FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN INTERTWINE WITHIN THE DEPTHS OF MY MIND
WHO'S NOT AFRAID AS I WORK THROUGH MY LAYERS TILL I GET TO MY CENTER MY CORE MYSELF EVEN THE PARTS OF ME THAT BEEN COLLECTING DUST ON A SHELF
THEY WILL BE STANDING THERE WITH A DUST RAG AND A MOP READY TO HELP
NOT THAT YOU DIDN'T HELP BUT YOU HAD TO MANY DUSTY SHELVES THAT YOU HADN'T EVEN DEALT WITH
AND WELL MY ALLERGIES STARTED ACTING UP AND YES I BECAME FED UP
BUT YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST DAY THAT MY EMOTIONS WERE FLOWING THROUGH MY VEINS
MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY MAKING ME INSANE
NO LONGER AM I IN PAIN NOW I ONLY LOOK WHAT I HAVE GAINED
NEW NAMES INSCRIPTED IN MY HEART
WHERE THEY WILL REMAIN
TILL DEATH DO US PART
Still I’m not good enough
TAKING MY STYLE AND EXPRESSION PUSHING IT TO SUPPRESSION
BECAUSE IT CREATED A TENSION IN YOU
but still im not good enough
MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY
IT WAS LIKE THEY DIDN'T EXIST
AS IF I DISSOLVED THEM IN A COMBINATION OF SOLVENTS
but still im not good enough
ON MY HANDS AND KNEES
TO CATER TO YOUR NEEDS
EVEN WHEN THE FLOOR WAS COLD AND MY KNEES BEGAN TO CALLUS
but still im not good enough
PUTTING YOU BEFORE ME
YOUR NEEDS
YOUR FEELINGS
YOUR DREAMS
WITHHOLDING MY NEEDS
MY FEELINGS
MY DREAMS
TO INVOLVED IN HELPING you GAIN STRENGTH
WHILE I REMAINED WEAK
but still im not good enough
THROUGH ALL YOUR PHASES OF GROWTH
GOOD AND BAD
EVEN WHEN THE MADNESS OF YOUR STRANGERS MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS IN DANGER
but still im not good enough
WHEN YOUR HANDS LEFT THEIR PRINTS ON MY SKIN
CAUSE YOU WERE HANDLING ME LIKE I WAS A HIM
AFTER YOUR VERBAL ASSAULTS MANY TIMES WITHOUT LEGITIMATE CAUSE
JUDGING MY FLAWS
3 STRIKES AND YOUR STILL NOT OUT
but still im not good enough
LIES WERE TOLD
SECRETS WERE KEPT
FORGIVEN I'VE DONE
ACCEPTED IT WAS THE PAST I'VE DONE
MOVED ON FROM YOUR DECEIT AND OPENED MY ARMS TO LOVINGLY GREET YOU
I'VE DONE
but still im not good enough
COULD'NT KEEP UP WITH ME ON MY LEVEL
I NEVER LOOKED DOWN AT YOU WITH RIDICULE
INSTEAD I EXTENDED MY HAND TO HELP YOU STAND ON MY SYMMETRICAL LAND
but still im not good enough
ALWAYS TRIED TO KEEP OUR WEAKNESS AND STRENTGH COUNTERBALANCED
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED I TRIED I TRIED
I NEVER SEEM TO SASTIFY
but still im not good enough
INVITED YOU ON MY GREAT JOURNEY
WANTING TO SEE THIS LIFETIME WITH YOU
WILLING TO TAKE YOU PLACES YOU'VE NEVER BEEN AND INTRODUCE YOU TO TOTAL FULLFILLMENT AND PLEASURE
but still im not good enough
OPENED MY WHOLE SELF TO
YOU
NEVER LIED TO
YOU
DIDN'T WANT TO FAKE MY LOVE TO
YOU
ALWAYS THERE TO SUPPORT
YOU
WANTED ONLY THE BEST FOR
YOU
ACCEPTED
YOU
FOR
YOU
DIDN'T TRY TO CHANGE
YOU
YOU! YOU! YOU! YOU! YOU!
but still im not good enough
still im not good enough
im not good enough
not good enough
good enough
enough
I'M TOO GOOD
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