Tuesday, March 24, 2020

for all my dead brothers
 
hope left on the
last bus out of
town
 
i poured one out for
all my dead brothers
 
lost in whatever damn
war we're fighting
anymore
 
the hole in the wall
bar doesn't have any
sense of joy tonight
 
i asked joey what's
going on tonight
 
he motioned over
to the end of the bar
 
big john was crying
in his beer
 
he never thought
she'd actually get
on that bus
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a history of blood clots
 
the endless misery
 
pain dances down
my spine, resting
in my lower legs
 
sleep is impossible
 
walking is a chore
 
and of course,
sitting too long
isn't the best thing
for someone with
a history of blood
clots
 
most of my days are
spent between ice on
my back and walking
between every few
videos on youtube
 
the mind does its
best to keep me
occupied from
reality
 
some days, failure
is like breathing
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i never had many friends
 
i used to listen
to jim morrison
when i was a
teenager on a
regular basis
 
he went pretty
good with the
marijuana i was
smoking at the
time
 
i'd save
burroughs
for any trips
on acid
 
i enjoyed
the feeling
of dr. benway
looking to
destroy me
 
and bukowski
always showed
up on the nights
the bottles won
the war

to find love at your age
 
the soft curves
of the last woman
you ever loved
 
she never wanted
anything serious
 
and you never
expected to find
love at your age
 
don't allow the
brain to destroy
it again
 
savor the moment
 
each smile, each
whisper
 
each quiet night
wrapped in loving
arms
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the false hope
 
this endless charade
push pull give take
 
the promise that someone
is out there just for you
 
the false hope that there
is gold at the end of the
rainbow
 
enough failure and that
hope ends up as a bullet
 
and love is the ability
to pull the trigger
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J.J. Campbell

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