Wednesday, January 15, 2020

a little too much with evil
 
these cold nights
are when the pain
likes to come out
and play
 
keep me up at night
until the sun starts
to peek out a little
 
the pills don't work
 
the alcohol never
lasts long enough
 
and my imagination
dabbles a little too
much with evil
 
i suppose i'm just
crazy enough that
a balance is even
possible
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the first line of cocaine
 
there's no point
in swearing that
the first line of
cocaine is going
to be your last
 
trust me
 
it won't be
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the hard reality
 
i think of my old
high school crushes
and where they are
today
 
how i never hear
from them anymore
 
how i don't hear
from hardly anyone
from my past anymore
 
it's the hard reality
of being forgotten
 
you have no choice
but to lie to yourself
if you want to stay
sane
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not a concept i am comfortable with
 
i imagine if i didn't
hate christmas songs
i would have a different
take on this time of year
 
but happiness is not a
concept i am comfortable
with
 
sadly, never have been
 
i look at these scars and
wrinkles and know time
isn't on my fucking side
any longer
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a dose of reality
 
happiness
may be a
warm gun
 
but i have
to think that
a negative
pregnancy
test is right
up there as
well
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comes with experience
 
it's an old song
i dedicated to
my first girlfriend
 
the first phone
number i ever
got
 
i probably love
that woman more
today than i ever
did when i was
a teenager
 
a good bit of
knowledge comes
with experience
 
if you're lucky
of course
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J.J. Campbell

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