the moon hung
like a curve of a tear
in the soundless mirror
of the sky
no clouds to hide its way
this is something unsay able
this saved-up coin of happiness
i take it while I can
a blank page
our footprints write on
the bent figure
of a fairy girl
came to me in the box you sent
with its distant eyes
and delicate lily lines
one of the wings fell off
just laying there in the box
like the curved shell
of a tear
she is lost
and found at the same time
a secret smile
as she looks down
she leans on open hands
sucking on cherry pits until there's no taste left
I want to tell you what you mean to me
I've been meaning too
I've been too busy
and now it's too late
my life is a coloring book
you've missed so many birds
I'm too young to grow up
cover me with thoughts of you
hold me close
and I'll hold you true
occasionally the fruit is bitter
an angel's fallen from the sky
cherry pits fall like echo's of glass
in the bowel
at the lake
we sit with our beer cans
talking and laughing
and I miss you
the mirrored lake
is full of secrets and motion
back at the house
unfinished among the trees and purple wildflowers
the sun is setting
thick strokes of color
blending into each other
I remember thinking
it was like looking into a crystal
now the stars are out
swirling in the blackest country sky
the crickets are out
but I can't go to sleep
until the phone rings
Egyptian Dream a woman of blue feathers and musk stares with liquid, black eyes wet onyx trembles in the night she flies over the pale golden sands the moon her pale song a wail in the night she walks on the sand beside the sphinx and looks at him with dark eyes nothing will ever change together, they turn to face the sun awaiting dawn
Take me river, carry me far, lead me river, like a mother, take me over to some other unknown, put me me in the undertow
I lay awake at night
listening to the lullaby of the crickets
soft underwater whispers
mixing into the night
this is the only time
I get to not think
worries blend into the shadows
I wrap myself in the trembling blankets
the space between dreams
everything seems right
in those soft dark moments
alone with crickets
the night is deafening
when the silence is listening
mine is an army of angels
night brings out troubles to the light
hanging on the smoky edge of dreams
hazy silvers hide the light
hidden clouds and trees like dark tears
starts with a glimmer
ending with a glow
It's so hard to forget pain
but it's even harder to remember sweetness
for Michael Calvello
take me to the fields
of golden green
where the flowers bloom heavy
against the scented sky
and trembling water
the path of bent grass
leads to a group of quiet trees
even when they are together
burnt green tears
in the distance
it won't ever change
if you want it to stay the same
jagged, delicate petals
billowing out or darkening green
this is a memory from my early childhood
when i think things made a little more sense
when life gets to be too much
I remember I used to dream
fantasies of endless summertime
with crystal-blue jewels
floating gently downstream
a time when pain was too small too mention
and cold wasn't understood
the winter roses
floated outside our window
honey colored feathers
lazily turning curving upward
to what is left of the sun
we looked at them
as we had our coffee
in our blue china cups
wrapped in blankets
waking up slowly
wiping away the tears of sleep
slow secret smiles
the winter roses
lightly hang there like bells
curving bells as if held up by nothing
comfort and loneliness
honey and green watercolor
like a sigh
like a whisper
breathing a little more warmth into the coldness
sooner or later
I need a savior
Good day my love,
Why do you say that I flirt?
I see you keep staring at all the young ladies.
Good day my love,
Why do you say I tune out to what you have to say?
I told you what you need it to know.
Good day my love,
Why do you say that I don't do women's obligations?
I see how you never take us out.
Good day my love,
Why do you say that I’m a cruel mother?
I see how you are to the kids.
Good day my love,
Why do you say I’m ignorant?
I see how your boss told you to do the same thing over and over again.
Good day my love
Why do you say I’m not respectful?
I see all the bruises on my body.
Good day my love,
Why do you say I’m not a pleasing lover?
I see how is all about you.
Good day my love,
You asked why couldn't you come home?
I say because that's the last thing that I well let you do...
Your silky lips seem to mold into mine when we kiss.
Our lips part and our tongues begin a dance of their own.
Your tongue moves methodically within mine as if in search of the finest treasure.
Tasting you with every wavelike motion is reminiscent of a love language.
Verbal orgasms send me over the edge and a moan escapes me sending vibrations in our oral world of seduction.
Your hands on either side of my face let me know you are hungry for more.
I slowly pull back and look into your eyes and then your eyes lower to my lips.
A seductive smile creeps upon your face.
I take your face into my hands and I slowly trace your lips with my tongue and I see the need in your eyes to feel my lips once again.
This oral manipulation is causing us both to focus intently on the task at hand.
Keep giving me your oral jisms; your kisses are the truth, no lie.
A taste you can't get out off your taste buds.
I remain coated on your tongue as a reminder
of the loving you feen for.
The lover you scream for.
Better yet the lover you cream for.
My sexy talk makes you lose your mind
And a slow wind that makes you want to grind.
The one you're with doesn't understand your needs
Let me remind you of the difference between her and me.
She kicks her heels off and I keep mine on
She can't break you off, but I can turn you on.
Her favorite position is what they call missionary.
My favorite one is whatever is imaginary.
My loving has no boundaries and anything goes
I make you put in work and I always cur your toes.
Unfortunately this fantasy has only taken place in my mind.
I am your forbidden fruit, dangling from a vine.
Like an addict to a drug addiction, I go through withdrawals when you are not around.
I walk around aimlessly wondering if our secret love will be found out.
I have to love you from a distance because you belong to another.
The forbidden fruit I crave, my shelter and my cover.
I am the happiness you want and the lover that you need.
I give you a taste of what real love is and you always up and leave.
I stimulate the most inner part of your soul
but you can't seem to break free, forever etched inside the mold.
Like Romeo and Juliet, we can only love each other in the shadows.
Cause if our loved is found out, we are destined for the gallows.
A love so pure and sweet and yet I must hold it in.
Loving someone who is taken has become my greatest sin,
But it's also my greatest pleasure, to know I'm the reason you smile.
I'm the one who makes you laugh and makes life seem worth while.
The aching in my heart, I've got to rise above
but for now, you'll be my Forbidden Love.
Sweet temptations graze across your lips.
An indulgence that sends a current through your body and ignites you.
My full chocolate lips are lightly caressing yours.
Your anticipation is quite audible to me.
I can hear your heart pounding through your chest.
I sample the sweetness of your lips with my tongue
to take in all your flavor.
I can still taste the strawberries that I just fed you moments before.
How delectable you are.
I gently kiss your eager lips and the vibration of your moan on my lips encourages me.
I slowly part your lips with my tongue and enjoy the flavors of our mouths.
Fiercely sensual, you make me feverish in my own skin.
Now steaming from the heat, my lips between my thighs begin to swelter.
We lose ourselves in each other, over and over again.
Each kiss, slays you with such precision and deliberateness.
The kiss of death, so sweetly urged.
You engage me with your honey hued eyes that have flecks of gold.
You entice me with the sweetness that lies behind them;
Making me wonder the flavor of the nectar you hold.
Fantasizing about the sticky sweetness that is your essence.
Immortalized on my lips only to taste you again with one graze of my tongue.
Such sweet seduction
Kisses that could inflame the soul.
A tender touch that diffuses all my inhibitions.
The outside world wastes away and it's us.
We begin a dance of love and lust.
Both striving to please the other in hopes of a climatic release.
Our bodies move as one.
Methodically sending chills down each others spine.
Each stroke makes me submit and my body relaxes only to be tensed by an eruption that starts at the pit of my stomach and simultaneously tingles down to my toes and I erupt from both of my lips.
The set betweens my thighs tighten around you and release my love like a waterfall flooding your member like a tsunami.
The lips on face release moans and screams of sublime pleasure.
As I come down from my high I am humbled to be your lover for life.
You killed the fight in me and to feel this good again, I'll die a million times.
Thinking of You
I find myself laying in bed thinking of you.
Thinking of you watching me and I begin to touch myself.
My fingers slide into my moisten panties as my eager lips await the slightest sensation.
Mmmm...Moans escape my lips as visions of you appear in my mind.
I am not sure what turns me one more.
Your sexy smile?
The swagger you rock?
Your sexy body?
maybe it’s the thought of what I want to do.
Wanting to taste your soft lips.
Or the thought of you kissing mine.....down there.
Maybe it's the thought of you stroking...my...mouthand hearing your sexy moan.
My love pearl is so swollen wanting a release.
I let my fingers rub it faster in a circular motion imagining you watching me.
And then the vision comes to mind right before my release.
Your head in between my thighs licking, sucking, and nibbling on my love pear until I let my river flow all over your lips, tongue and chin.
Then you raise your head and look up at me and I see my love glistening all over your mouth.
I open my eyes and realize the mess I've made between my thighs.
I lick my fingers pretending I am tasting the thoughts of you that remain.
10,000 decibels too short of hidden this beat is tight
Out of sight...
Green lips set caged humming birds free (flight)
10,000 miles a second green wings shimmer
So sci-fi sky high type fly fly fly away
Black Snow white with the wild beasts jamming to Badu
As Her indigo knuckles knock on my chest I bleed hot pink emotions
Drip drying all over my flustered face in faucets of blush
Masking this funk ship shifting rhythm in under ground oceans oceans
I'm stroking y'all...
We melt in a pot of sheets like steam over fat asses we drip...
Sip and hotcake on her griddle flip...tongue? lip hip grip suck dont slip
Aaaaahhh.... damn baby slow down...
Hookah bar type tities as I succulently molest medium deep mahogany mountains
Where smoke fountains tickled my tongue...pastel painted my lungs a ganja green
Serene scene of a titie fene... titie fene
This aint a dream y'all...
Baby doll so African perfectly carved wooden
Grape Jolly Rancher Draped Pantie
Fanti, see, I woman be Purrrr Purrr Pretty Puss Beauty
Oooo weee... Hmmm
Forefinger flexes fluidly for her fluid tree
Honey bee sticky icky juicy tea...
Jerk and || Vibrate and Beatin involuntarily
OOhhh I think she like me... yall...
Negroes cant swim so I drown in it
Ta-da-da-da that ass upscale fish scale mermaid
Sex slave whole sale gmail water hole big wale...
Well... you get the idea.. yall
Creative anti-virginity activity
You kiss on me crucially swirling sanity and sanctity
Flammable aerosol puffs blaze brown bellies birthing heathen activity
It's called sensual fluidity teenage eccentricity
She is the zero gravity epitome
Dippn me in and out of reality...
Fantasy on earth y'all...
I raise my hands in praise
Cupping her D-cup double gaze
I graze gracefully under holy ganja nipple a-maze
Green lips Humming birds anti virginity activity singing to me
Sex is better than drugs honey...
Water overhead, underneath.
How did we get here?
How did I get here?
Rising, sinking, sinking.
So suddenly, I am alone.
Will we ever catch our breath?
Will I ever catch my breath?
Fighting, screaming, screaming.
Water fills my lungs; I cannot speak, cannot think.
Are we strong enough to start over?
Am I strong enough to start over?
Winning, drowning, drowning.
I want to retire, just for a moment.
Can we be honest with ourselves?
Can I be honest with myself?
Pushing, struggling, struggling.
Pruny hands, hearts; we have expired.
Will we ever feel again?
Will I ever feel again?
Hurting, resting, resting.
My Heart is in Your Toaster Oven
There isn’t enough room in my heart for hate,
But I can’t even keep a promise to myself.
Your songs are just poems with a pretty melody,
My poems are just unfinished songs on a shelf.
You kiss gives me flies—what? I mean butter,
You’ve got me all worn down; I’m inside out.
But we spin faster and you tighten your grip,
Sun is bright, sky is blue, and I’m still full of doubt.
You say I’m pretty cute, but I don’t like how this rhymes,
Should we start over, make up for lost time?
I’m changing the beat, keep up with the pace,
You never seemed to like the sad look on my face.
We’re like the ocean, no, more like a tree,
I’m not sure how, but it’s a damn good simile.
Pick up your guitar, sing a song, make me smile,
I just wanna be here in your arms for a while.
I’m all over the map, but you’re the ink to my quill,
Wait, no, that was stupid; you’re the sprinkles to my vanill--
--A…ice cream? What? I’m not making any sense,
I’ll agree to let you rescue me if you’ll just be my prince.
You really make me laugh and your eyes make me melt,
You’ve got a heart of gold and you’re the best that I have smelt.
What? I mean smelled; I’m enunciating lazily,
Actually, I think it’s just you’ve got me going crazily.
Dead or Alive
This blank page underneath my pen
will soon be alive like that first night
spent in the arms of heartache.
Nothing ever felt more real,
and I never wanted so badly to be dreaming.
I was as fragile as a tulip
trying to fight off a hurricane.
I was drowning and losing.
Overwhelming, the feeling was when
you get too hot but you can’t get your coat off.
And no one is around to help you.
I was trapped inside that puffy, down coat,
all alone, in the middle of a hurricane.
If I could hold on long enough,
maybe if I could breathe in the eye of the storm.
But how do you break the news to yourself
that you’re already dead?
Ghost of You
You’re the Ghost that won’t leave me alone.
When I drive past exit sign 97B, there you are,
showing me your perfect smile,
your mouth slightly parted so the laughter can escape.
When I watch that movie,
they fall in love again and again and again,
thanks to “scene selection,”
and his body becomes your’s; her hands, mine.
When I see that dress and the silky fabric
spills over my shins, I can smell your hair
and feel your ear soaking up
my hot breath and secrets.
When I hear that song with that line
that made you laugh,
I feel your fingers between mine with the windows
down and my hair a crazy mess.
When I see my breath outside in the chilly air I look over
to my left and see you beside me on the top of your car,
waiting in the dead of winter for
a meteor shower that would never come.
It’s time for you to go now, move on, please.
You can’t keep haunting me late at night like this,
or when I’m in his arms,
or drifting off to sleep.
Let me go.
I can’t help you now.
You’re just the Ghost of who you were;
There’s a different you living inside that shell now.
But what you fail to realize is
my ghost is out there somewhere
because it made me different, too.
I’m Just a Toy Doll
The room is full of people,
but all I see is you--
you standing there in that dark suit.
Now I’m nothing but a puddle on the floor.
If you came in and scooped me up and
molded me into the girl you want me to be,
I’d look so different.
My nose would be smaller, maybe with a few freckles,
I’d be shorter, definitely shorter--
easier to pick up and carry around the house.
I’d make you feel like a man then.
Yeah, you’d be so amazing with a tiny lady
who enjoys cooking your spaghetti.
If you could, you’d take a saw to my head,
lift the top of my skull off like was just a
furry bowl resting there.
You’d take out my brain and exchange it with
I’d think just like you in this bite-sized form
with my culinary hands,
and you’d be in complete heaven.
You’d wipe off my girly nail polish,
smooth out my wild hair,
throw a racy outfit on me—no, nude.
No, everyone is looking…a turtleneck and sweats--
Then you’d complain about how I look.
Tan skin (free of charge!),
and I’m ready and willing.
It’s unfortunate for you that toy dolls aren’t real.
Forever and for All of the Universe
My life is a sad song
No noise other than
One lonely voice
About love and sorrow
About life and sadness
But we collided
And you put music
To my melody
And I can’t seem
To put the cassette down
Until I have just one more
It’s a symphony
Of gentle passion
That floods my ears
And I’m pretty sure
This is my new
Of all time.
How do you do it?
My skin is translucent to your eyes.
You see straight to my broken heart;
sometimes it’s scary,
but you know me better than anyone.
The whole world knows I’m a jigsaw puzzle,
1500 pieces scattered wildly.
But you see a finished work of art
when you look at me.
I am my truest self when you’re there,
believing in me.
This poem is a mess,
but it’s like my heart that started in
a bunch of tiny fragments and you
stitched it back together.
It was initially so ugly and broken up,
but each piece was honest.
And when it beat as one again,
You saw the miracle right through my chest.
It may not be pretty,
but that doesn’t mean it won’t work.