Thursday, May 1, 2014

GIANT KILLERS
 
A falling oak cracks the afternoon quiet.
Chainsaws follow behind like acolytes of
that first loud unexpected sound.
 
From my bedroom, I can hear the massacre of a
tree trunk in the valley below, feel each log hacked away
from the whole, small enough now for children to bear in
their arms and haul up to the house.
 
I can be on this bed and have a boyhood dream
of giants cut down by my dead-eye slingshot
reenacted with a piercing buzz and the churn
of resistance falling away in a scream of wood-chips.
 
I can imagine these small men and even smaller
boys, each with a jagged slice of limb or skull
or torso stumbling up the hill, not caring that
their shoulders sag and their muscles ache,
for they have slain the unslayable.
 
Then I remember how miserable it feels when things
that brush against the sky no longer do, '
when the huge and inconceivable
are cut down to human size.
 
I have put down my slingshot, saved my giant's
life many times since I was young. And now here
are others, strangers, destroying him within earshot.
 
They'll take him away in pieces...his heart,
his nerve, his brain.
He'll be part of a large, crackling,
flame-throwing hearth fire.
That'll warm some people.


JOE DREAMED OF JEANNIE
Vacationing at Cocoa Beach,
by day, his horned owl eyes pierced
the canopy of sun-tanned blondes
for the one who twitched miracles,
whose navel was a sparkling jewel.
At night, he'd stare at the shadow bones
of his empty motel bed,
imagine them made flesh,
a harem of one.
He finally did meet someone arid marry,
two years of half way decent sex,
and then ten to twenty of she
chained to the kitchen,
he sprawled in the parlor watching reruns
of "I Dream Of Jeannie."
From time to time,
he'd rub an empty beer bottle,
and his wife would drag herself into the room
with a tray of chips and dip,
though she never once called him "Master."
RAT-HOLE
For every child in this tenement building,
there's at least a dozen rats.
Not that anyone ever begs for their share.
The rodents gnaw through walls.
They feast in cupboards.
Traffic noise is not just
honking horns and screamed obscenities.
It's also scrambling feet across a high beam.
Some people sleep with baseballs bats.
It gives great pleasure
to contemplate crushing a toothy skull.
A baby was bitten just last month.
The clinic gave her shots.
The reluctant landlord
called in the exterminators.
Rats moved next door until they were done.
One tenant says that even fancy homes
have rats.
But no one's ever been in such a place
to verify.
Such talk is part of acceptance.
Rats go with the leaky taps
and inefficient radiators.
It's as if these creatures
are the architects, the builders,
of these places.
No one can move in
until rattus norvegicus
gives the thumbs up.
Somehow people manage to live here.
love; care and cherish
like the best families.
Of course, no one bothers to frighten their kids
with tales of the boogie man.
In this rat-hole,
he'd be an improvement.
John Grey

Friday, April 25, 2014

Kayla
1.
Kayla has a yard sale
sells her Minnie Mouse ears 
and matching gloves
then snap…!
vivid memory of herself as a suburban Mouseketeer
naïve, sweet, innocent…
Regretting the loss, she runs down the street
breathing hard
Her hair flies out behind her, snarled red
She hopes to spy the buyer—maybe at another sale…
Kayla’s neighborhood is not so good
When she returns home, all her other possessions are gone,
things she wanted to sell 
and things she had decided to keep after all
Even the tables are gone

2. 
Kayla wakes to Olivia Newton-John 
working out on the Total Gym
$14.95/ 30 day trial
Kayla remembers when she herself 
wore a tight black leather mini-skirt
and looked so good
Kayla switches channels
watches a documentary on the Holocaust
goes into the bathroom and gazes at the reflection 
of her thin, weak arms
Kayla’s not so sure the Holocaust ever happened

3.
Kayla squirts sunscreen on her tooth brush
realizes her mistake
laughs to herself
a light moment
one few and far between 

4.
Kayla’s cat wears a chronically peeved expression
and wonders if it’s too late to become feral
already his fate 
in two of nine alternative universes

Shards 

The glass shards embedded in my side
usually work their way out slowly
but sometimes emerge quickly
as if my body is spitting them out 
Once a Vietnamese woman woke up bleeding
My projectiles 
had pierced her as she slept 
She screamed
knew a bad omen when she saw one
a lover whose body was an unconscious weapon 
I had to run
her father was the police chief
I never had the time to explain
I crossed the border into Cambodia

For a Few Moments Ed Stops Fretting About His Failing Corn

Entire villages perish in an earthquake
crazed gunmen kill 
 moviegoers
and the righteous at prayer
Bankers steal billions
children go hungry 
The only thing that rivets Ed’s attention is a report
on Lady Gaga’s heat-seeking bra
He wonders: how does that work?
What’s the technology behind that?
Sex is so distant in his past  
he lacks the muscle memory
to begin to understand 
Ed has had breasts in his hands
certainly
but not a celebrity’s 
not even somebody locally famous  
Shit, he says, rousing himself
He gets out of the chair 
for the sake of getting out of the chair
Lady Gaga’s heat-seeking bra--
 the thought won’t leave him
He’s obsessed, transfixed
but his mind can’t find any traction
He stares out the window of his farmhouse 
at the drought-parched corn

Three Years of Sex

Cheryl rusts from the inside
Her organs are pig iron 
the connectors
(intestinal, esophageal, eustachian)
are lead,
green corruption at their joints
She was made strong by Russian ancestors
but not made to last
She’s rusting on the inside and 
her female organs are doing something down there
she doesn’t know what
She’s only seventeen but already menopausal
Three years of sex was all she’d had before
this odd disaster befell her
erasing her maternal fantasies 
But boys still crawl in her bedroom window
the sex as mechanical as heavy-metal drumming
but satisfying all the same 

My Ad for Match.com 

I do not have blockages in my sinuses
I have Dustbowl allergies
allergies my parents brought from Oklahoma
in the thirties
I don’t sleep
I’m unpleasant
I just want you to know the truth

M. Krockmalnik Grabois

Monday, April 14, 2014

THE WRONG SIDE OF HISTORY
 
 From Russia to the Redskins,
To marijuana and marriage equality,
 Proponents of Obamacare, all shouting,
"YOU'RE on the wrong side of history."
 
 What exactly does THAT mean?
We can't help but at times disagree,
 In a big country, in an even larger world,
Pausing to think BEFORE spewing judgment is key.
 
 Geography connected by technology, BUT...
Differences discouraged, shades of grey the latest foe,
 With speed, "Black and White" disease spreading,
Exit empathy, as the globe becomes the "Land of No."
 
 But wait, I hear the voice of "American" individuality,
In secessionist dissent to the "we" forced and faux,
 Catalonia, Crimea, Sardinia,
Scotland and Veneto!
 
 Tired of sacrificing independence and identity,
Blended into a melting pot, riding on someone else's bus,
 Self segregation turning into romantic nationalism,
Begging the questions: "WHY does EVERYONE have to be like US?"
 
 And "WHO has the right to their own state?"
Is self determination or patron liberation the path?
 Too much "sharing" leading to separatism,
Disrupting current world order and incurring its wrath!
 
Karen Ann DeLuca

Saturday, February 15, 2014



Balanced Repertoire


Petals and fizzling small craters, inches
from the side of the road.
I dive
into the net and let
the struggle ensue.
I lived in corners
with the dead-mature, in flaps
like wishy-washy by-standers. But here, entering
the small soft mounds of pleasurable
taboos and smiling up in the treetops, I am sitting
on the weakest branch just to get the best overview.
My tongue
is painted many colours.
I lost you in the nuclear glow. It happened
gradually, like a cliff descending,
finally,
meeting ground.
I used to float -
a silhouette of fine cuts
and obvious edges. But I lost you and
it is good to lose extensions,
flavours of redundant delight.
Enthralled by sensual geometry,
by mountain ridges reflected in heartbeats,
wrinkles, rough spots, perfect
intricacy
equilibrium
subconscious sway, and you.
You never loved me, never knew
I was a neophyte, taker of whatever
I could get, keeper of
an ethereal garden. I
will accept my joy
regardless of lack, discover joy
in what droops to provide me canopy, also
in what arches upward, proclaiming its praise.


Allison Grayhurst
allisongrayhurst@rogers.com

Fidelity

Further in
into intimacy, surrendering
the rosary beads, the Buddha beads, the Krishna beads - necklaces
of superstitious worth, a means to be compensated
with miracles for work done - disciplined activity
performed with the anticipation of divine participation –
enduring boredom with karmic pride. But nothing works
that way or does it let go into voluminousness
just because of accumulation. Why can’t I be
the things I see? Why do I resist collapse, clasp
onto linear principles, desperate to be justified.
Intimacy is everything ever sought – to have God inside
filling, overtaking every other sensation. Movement
like locked loins or other body parts in
synchronized ministrations, joining another’s pulse,
extending the body’s confines. I will not want for more
but this surrender - the stillness of receptivity coalescing
with the arching activity of advancing without expectations of results,
to be delivered into the rhythm of tangible grace, giving into
a relentless rich flow that knows taste and substance
but no set speed. I know
staying this way is not easy,
not when the bedsheets are moth bitten and money
is stolen at the corner store. I know teeth need fixing and foundations
are fragmenting, but how can that matter when the whole
is at stake?  When whatever is taken, explored and received
is there to guide further in. When God is asking
for this union to be achieved, offering peace but
no ego reprieve - no other lovers, no compromise.


 Allison Grayhurst
allisongrayhurst@rogers.com

Other Side


Killed in the cloud
                                    that ripples softly.
            Believing we would be triumphant
made it so, and being dead we
                        learned a new way to rise and praise.
The music lies down in the seas,
                                    so I hear the dolphins hum
            and see octopi sway.
                                                Madness is part of our heritage
                        but also our navigating star.
Whisper of the wonder we walk
                        through each day, beside one another
            and our little girl.
Away from the dull chaos of the common bar
                                                this is a new plateau, a horse
in our backyard.
Up and dancing, the ground and air
                                    join together to say -

                                                                        we were never alone.

Allison Grayhurst                                                                                                          allisongrayhurst@rogers.com


Saltwater Sprint

A returning dream ruffled in my shell,
opening intermittent passages of discovering.
Crossbreezes and singular infinity,
by death and dying you buy me whole.

The slug’s flesh merges miraculously with
the curve of a leaf - white pink on green, more potent
than a drop-cliff, than rebellion.
Stroking the skin of a tree, I end up here,
in the morning, with the nesting squirrels
collecting torn newspapers, swaying with the telephone wires.
Brilliance plays like chords on the brink of chaos,
almost fracturing sanity. Suspended firm like a branch
over traffic, I hear riffs like cars arrive then leave.

Sleep, little lilac near the fence, I have learned
determination can solve most problems.
Tomorrow I will make the final break, orbit
beyond the periphery of natural selection.

God, scoop me up in your cone, don’t
let me doubt your goodness. If you are here,
I am living, I can let slip what I am capable of,
create origami with infants and animals.
I can climb the steps of any probability
just to feel you press up against my rigidity,
purify with kneading pressure
a hard illumination.


Allison Grayhurst                                                                                                          allisongrayhurst@rogers.com
 
 Heaven must be active (not innate)

Life is raw
as a just-made wound. It is raw
so it is open to acts of mercy
and the beginning of true humility.
God is not proud but always available,
is always faultless in the body of love.
Life is raw
with no way to be protected from
cruel chance, no way but to ride the raft
down the falls and see what gets broken, then see
what gets preserved.


Allison Grayhurst
allisongrayhurst@rogers.com



















Friday, January 17, 2014

She Fixed Me

with morphine sweeter than the desert.  Rainfall
[and the snake] silently assumed I would sleep
through morning, but it didn’t work out that way.
It was ridiculously hot inside.
Perhaps the partial psychological stress of sleeping in
unbreathing skin revolted the night. . .

I dreamed of concentration camps --
human ovens with matchstick hunger –
transforming into something . . .

Too thin to be human, their eyes bulged
and accused:  Everything burns; the flame
is but a crucible.  (It was the same phrase
I’d heard in my nightmare about the skeleton
going up in shrouded flame.)



[Hand]Standing To Be (Delivered?)
for Ben Johnson

The urge to master stone broke the chaos
of my mind’s statu[r]e.  I searched for any crack
that might be construed as a hold,
but the surface was too smooth (or I was),
and we slipped against each other
‘s grip at every angle.

I turned quickly to scatter

the remnants of my triumphant idea to the wind,
but the tale was tricky and hinged itself
on a blind[ing] blue maw-mouthed monster:
an anchor.  I accepted
this diminuated challenge as a renewed house
of launch:
                        Strike one:  Crash!
                        Swing two – an “ish” miss.
I regrouped for the third ballast.  I would not fall out!
A focus force locked.  My muscles’ memory st[r]uck . . .

A flash moment’s capture of matriculated success
heralded my feet a moment longer to the wind.
A change of plans that settled the upset,

as upside-down, the stone’s persistent ring continued
its haunting back in my view.



Running Water through Sound Waves

My mind begins to separate like sand. 
The water becomes hands, shapes my imagination
into textbook molds.  My thoughts grow towers,
dig moats, raise gates against the outside. 
Even wind cannot trespass my new fortitude.
For 11 hours I am queen of this depravation chamber.
Once  moon replaces sun, magic loses tangibility,
and an eruption of thunderous crushing comes
to topple metaphorical front
door.  I turn to statue, immobilized against this
onslaught.  I can only watch as my comforting dream
dissolves, devoured by midnight’s tide.



I Am Eve

First woman in your world,
part of your bones.  Removed,
I blossomed, a flower in the jungle
of your mind.  You wanted me
to be second, subservient.  I had
other plans, skipped dinner, brought you
dessert.  Instinctively, I knew apple
was your favorite, but
the bite came when you recognized
its understated hints of venom.  Too late.

A.J. Huffman

Saturday, January 11, 2014

My stalk sticks up from below my bellybutton/ I
   am a stalker, a corn stalker/ call me the kernel, my
      talking is major/ I'm General Mills/ if they knew of
 
my shenanigans, they'd give me corporal punishment/ they
  don't know because I keep it private, even if I have to
      buck up/ I'm stuck up as I fuck up, as I stalk her playing
 
        the field/ she calls the police on me, but Sgt Faulker is
     also a stalker & a non-stop talker/ he talks about the one
  he stalks/ they put him on a wire, the wire of desire because he
 
    can't stop stalking, but he sees another beauty & starts balking as
      he switches the object of his stalking & is in another corn field/ he
         approaches her from behind, ever so kind, but she says he's
 
            not her type/ his stalk wilts to the hilt in a forest of
                hair, all because she doesn't care, & now he's
                    old & tired/ as a stalker, he's retired!
 
            He puts his PECKER in a BOX &
                                 leaves it for the FOX &
                           goes TO SLEEP .  .  .
 
                           !
 
Fritz Hamilton
That Laugh

It was stupid of Walt
not to show it to Joan
before they got married
but he was too shy.
He had no idea 
what to expect
but he never expected 
her to laugh.
Not a laugh exactly, 
more of a cackle
children might hear 
from a witch on a broom
Saturday morning 
in a cartoon.

Joan's laugh rang out
the first night 
of their honeymoon.
Walt never got over it.
The marriage was over 
even if it continued
for six kids in ten years.
Like many men, Walt 
had no problem
copulating from afar
unencumbered by love.
It was dark in the bedroom.
Joan could have been
any woman.

Had he shown it to her
before they got married
and heard that laugh,
he would have left town,
embarrassed, you bet,
but there would have been
no wedding, no kids, 
no divorce, no years 
in a hotel room mailing 
alimony and support.  

After the divorce
things didn't improve.
Walt heard the laugh
in his dreams, in cabs, 
on elevators, in diners,
everywhere he went. 
He heard it after the kids
earned degrees, 
got married, did
well on their own,
escaping the pyre
of their childhood. 

At Joan's funeral
Walt told the kids why 
the marriage had failed.
He said he shouldn't 
have shown her 
the poem the night 
they were married.
She laughed because
she thought it was funny.
She knew nothing 
about poetry,
nothing of his
efforts to write it.
This was his first poem,
the first of more than 500
published after the laugh.

Who'd believe a laugh 
could end a marriage
before it began?
Over the years Walt asked 
critics and editors 
for their opinions 
about the poem.
None found it funny.
The consensus was
the piece was tragic
in theme and imagery.
The experts were right
in more ways than one.
 

Donal Mahoney

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